Happy Birthday Lizzie! As of 1:26PM you’re officially four years old. You’ve translated my life in all sorts of ways, turning it upside down and inside out, deepening my thought and sending it off in entirely new directions, opening up a world that, before, was entirely invisible to me, and turning me into an incorrigible kid and bowl of jello that can’t help but completely regress to childhood as we explore the world together. But, above all, you’ve introduced a telos into my life that has no other aim, purpose, or goal beyond the simple aim of growing together, that is without condition or demand, and that is as basic and unquestionable as oxygen and water. Last weekend your mother and I were privileged with the envious joy of watching you and your friends bounce madly and with abandon and endless energy in the bounce house in the backyard. Today we shared a quiet day together, opening presents, singing songs, drawing, telling stories, and doing crafts. We’ve watched you grow into an architect and an engineer, an artist, a story teller, a dancer, a prankster and a joker, someone who perpetually thinks about others and strives to treat them with dignity and love, a ballerina, a princess (I don’t approve), a musician, a lover of pink and yellow, an unrepentant cuddler, occasionally a tickle zombie, and a lover of bugs, mud, puddles, snow and snowballs, and froggy boots. You are the real, that which I could have never anticipated and which I can never mold or define. Even when you came into the world you kept me up for three days straight as I awaited your arrival such that when you finally arrived the world was all a glorious blur of absolute exhaustion and I still found myself absolutely surprised and filled with wonder at this strange and beautiful personality– and it was there from the very beginning, from the very first gesture –that had joined my world. We love you and love sharing the adventure of our lives with you.
November 27, 2010
November 27, 2010 at 1:34 am
Levi,
A wonderfully radiant gift to your daughter. Beautifully said. Thanks for including the rest of us.
Michael
November 27, 2010 at 9:14 am
congrats to you all!
November 27, 2010 at 3:20 pm
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November 27, 2010 at 7:44 pm
Happy Birthday to Lizzie. Happy Anniversary of Fatherhood to Levi. In my experience, the best present one can give to a wonderful child is a sibling. That would also be a present to the parents. And a gift that keeps on giving. And sometimes taking.
November 28, 2010 at 2:00 am
As a fellow single father, I think you are doing a superb job and I’m sure your daughter appreciates your love and attention. Great birthday wish post – all the best!
November 28, 2010 at 2:18 am
I’m not a single father, Jan, but thanks.
November 28, 2010 at 2:25 am
Oh man, my mistake. You never mention Lizzie’s mother so I erroneously assumed that she must be out of the picture. My apologies. Back to lurking I go.
November 29, 2010 at 11:49 pm
Wonderful! I too have a four-year old daughter and her birth was the most ridiculously moving and incredible thing I have ever experienced. These little people are fantastic …
I’ll not go on and on, but your words here have really chimed with my emotions when I think about my little R.
November 30, 2010 at 12:57 am
that’s really awesome. i am wholesomely envious and wish the characters in this open plot continuous fluidity.
December 1, 2010 at 3:40 am
It’s rare to read something these days that quells (or at least temporarily dispels) one’s Dylanesque/grad studenty fear of bringing children into the world. Thanks for this, Levi. It’s thoroughly heartfelt and inspiring. Congrats to you, and happy birthday to Lizzie!
December 3, 2010 at 12:50 am
Oh yes, Levi, good to know your jouissance about Lizzie. All the best :)
I have daughters too. But aren’t we over-sentimentalizing this? You have five more years, then in ten years you would wish you had frozen them at 9. After this there’s frustration and irrelevance as a father (with a few tender moments).
Enjoy being a hero – as long as it lasts :)